I didn’t even have it at the time.
You knew I didn’t have it at the time. I didn’t ask you for help in my binds. You asked to be in the books, and then called me a crook. I was willing to suffer on my own and never pick up a phone.
I wish I would of said fuck you after you told me how terrible I was without helping me. I should of said fuck you when I spent hours giving you love and encouragement just for you to tell me “I don’t know what I’m talking about”. Fuck you. Who says that to someone who loves them? Did I not try to encourage? Did I not stay by your side? Fuck you and the opinions of the people who weren’t there. I should of and I would of stopped working with you if I was in my right mind, but I loved you. I let you make me feel like an idiot for caring about you. I should of stopped working with you. You dropped the tools anyway. You only worked when you wanted anyway.
I would of found anyway to not have to deal you a hand.
I felt a way but I didn’t allow it to affect your dreams. Your brand is still on the website. Fuck you. I’ve always been a liar to you. Believing the words of strangers over the one your with is something very old for you. You did it all the time.
I always told you to finish your projects.
You never did. You were in a relationship with what your conclusions were.
If you felt crossed by me. I did it. Even if i laying down sleep with no shoes on. I think you have an issue.
All you want to do is read the magazine in the waiting room. Get defensive.
You never listen. I always listened.
You never made sense. We lost that money.
I always told you I didnt want your help & u turned it against me. I do love my dreams more than you. I regret including you. I only left you because you treated me like shit. Then said it was because I treated you like shit. You never said how I treated you like shit. You just mention the lies that they told you. Because to confront the truth that would make you want to tell me to hold you but fuck you. As if you care. You don’t even care and I know you don’t because you shouldn’t. This is why you got frustrated when you never understood why I hate help or assistance. Soon as they. Feel a way. You go out the window.
See, I have let you go with no quarrel. Do The Same.
– Written by Shadel
Had a break up and I wrote this about 9 months ago when it happened. The goblins have been trying to haunt me since but fuck …..that Lol.